engagement pictures :)

Just wanted to share....

morning thoughts

It's only 7:30 right now, but I have been awake already for two hours. The day starts early for me. Sometimes I feel so frazzled just trying to get ready for the day. Today, I am ready and have been enjoying some quiet time to myself. A friend came into my classroom and gave me a gift for my wedding. I thought it was so sweet of her to come today, cause she won't be able to make it to the wedding. Then I read Stephanie's blog that her husband posted on. Once again it brought tears to my eyes. After, I opened my email and read a few thoughts about memorial day and all that we have to be thankful for. And what it all boils down to is this:

Almost all people in this world are good and kind and trying to do their best.

The land we live on is sacred and God has blessed us greatly to be where we are.

Prayer heals hearts and allows us to become humbled enough to know God's will.

The Savior knows each of us and loves us through it all.

And really, life is good. Life is really really hard, but life is good.

I am so blessed. I am so excited to begin my journey as a wife and look forward to starting my own family. I am grateful that I have the gospel in my life. I am grateful to know that there is a purpose for this life. I am so glad that I have the family I do. I had a much needed visit last night with my sister and am grateful for her wisdom and strength. Many people say they feel like they are on top of the world. I'm not quite on top, but I sure am enjoying the journey up to the top. :)

kids are dumb!

Today I woke up exhausted. I know that sounds familiar, but it's true once again. I woke up the day before at 3:00 am and couldn't get back to sleep. I tried reading for a while, but finished my book. Then I tried the scriptures, and still couldn't sleep. So, I did some laundry and by then it was 4:15. I just decided to shower and start the day early.

School was good that day as long as I didn't sit down. So I kept going all day. Cleaning and organizing for next year.

Today was harder. I was more tired and more ready for a break. But, again, I just keep moving and I am fine. The minute I sit down, I get really sleepy.

One of my students today said to me "maybe if you ate more cheerios, you'd be skinny too". I was teasing him for bringing a whole box of cheerios to class. Today, I'm too tired to work through that mentally. It really bothered me.

Then some other student told me that I deserved it for teasing him.

Then another student insinuated that I was a liar becuase I told another student that I didn't have any safety pins.

Don't they know I'm human? I mean really.

I think I'll go home and nap.

sweet ladies

Last night my mothers ward, the ward I grew up in, threw me a bridal shower. I was so excited and nervous at the same time. I'm not sure why the nervousness, but I got over it pretty quick.

As the sisters came in, I was reminded of how much I love this ward. Each of these women played an extremely important role in my life. I see so many of them as other 'mothers' and each time I gave them a hug, was filled with such an overwhelming feeling of gratitude.

I told my mom last night that I was spoiled. And I am. Not with gifts or trivial things. I am spoiled with love. Friendships that will last forever, wisdom given by others, and pure goodness.

Thank you, dear sweet ladies, for loving me and for coming last night and for throwing the shower in the first place. Thank you for being so good and so wonderful. I feel so very loved.

xoxo

too cute!

I love this wedding cake! I have a friend that just finished cake making classes, and being the amazing person she is, upon looking at the cake, she will maybe even make it for my wedding. WOW! How did I get so lucky! I hope she can make it. ;)

end of the year...

what we do in class....

1. throw a ball at the clock.
2. talk about my wedding.
3. discuss the suits my students want to wear to the wedding.
4. throw the ball at someone.
5. eat chocolate.
6. laugh about the dumb things kids do.
7. learn some vocabulary
8. make some flashcards.
9. apologize to Jovan for the black joke :) (He is black and loves attention)
10. change out of my dress during lunch cause I just couldn't do it anymore.
11. go home.

oh I can't wait for school to be out.

the real deal...

Guess what? Preparing invitations to send out makes this whole thing sorta real. I can hardly believe that it is happening. I'm ready! I'm ready for the whole thing. The hard times and the good times. I'm ready for him to be able to have a sleep over with me. And I'm ready to think about starting a family. I'm not so sure he is yet, but we'll get there. :)

So, all you who would like an invitation, let me know. I need addresses. :)

my own heartache...

After a very long night of waking up over stupid things and not ever falling into a deep sleep, I thought to myself "it's ok, today is Friday." I can do 5:30 a.m. one more day, becuase it's the weekend.

I felt a little drugged as I stumbled to the bathroom to brush my teeth. I was so tired. Then I had a thought while brushing my teeth. I thought "it's been a week since you last weighed yourself, you should do that today". Why? What is the point? I literally get scared when I go to weigh myself. I dread it.

Today I weighed 6 lbs more than I did last week. Is that even possible? I eat mostly healthy. I am more careful than I should be. I try really hard to exercise regularly. And yet the weight just seems to be piling on. And really, this shouldn't be that big of a deal, but I am a little messed up when it comes to my weight. The family could confirm this for you. So, the struggle mentally began...

What did you eat?
How much did you eat?
What diet havn't you tried?
No DIETS!!!
But, how do I lose weight without a diet?
You promised Heavenly Father no more diets.
Don't you think He'll understand?
Is He testing me?
What am I supposed to learn from this?
Is is the birth control?
The internet says that is a myth.
But, why so much in one week?
Maybe you should just give up on food and stop eating.
That's the wrong answer.
But what do I do?
How do I just be happy with me?
What would the doctor tell me?
MY doctor would say, exercise more.
What does he know about me anyway?
Who do I talk to?
Why now? Right before the wedding.
Do I look horrible?
How come my clothes still fit?
I don't understand...

And really, that will go on all day. I'm heartbroken and devastated. I don't know how to fix this one. I just need to find happiness with me, I know. I am trying and maybe will get there one day. I guess Heavenly Father knew that I could handle this one. Hope He'll help me again, cause I can't cry when the kids start coming in.

My New Life

Tears stream down my face today as I watched this very inspiring video of one of the most beautiful women. You will understand as you watch, and I hope that you will. Life is hard. For all of us. But the truth of the gospel carries us through and when you need it most the Savior is there. Thank you Stephanie for sharing your story and for reminding us all of the reason we are here.

The church is true!

The wedding announcment...

aren't weddings fun?!? All the bride does is blog about wedding details and stuff. Why? Cause that is all I have time to think about. And you have no idea (or maybe you do) how excited I am for the day to be here and done so that I can start relaxing...

for a day or two

then I start my masters. I think I am crazy!!!

anyway... here is the announcement we are going to use.

enjoy. :)


p.s. if there are any errors, you should tell me before I get them printed. :)